I’m working from a state of mind that I don’t have.
I find that some people consider this to be daydreaming, or maybe delusional.
I think of it as one of my powers.
I teach yoga and my wife and I expect to relocate to a different yoga market. I’ve gone to the interwebs and done some research on this new market, and it looks like it could be tough.
On a good day I can bring what might generously be called a moderate level asana practice to a yoga class. I’m willing to go harder, but my body is a lot older than I am. And from what I hear, people admire and seek out physical accomplishment in a yoga teacher. So I don’t know how it’s going to go in the new market. I might not be very competitive.
Nevertheless, I hope to pick up a class here and there as an itinerant teacher. See how it goes.
Yogi Bhajan said that no one came to some of the best classes he ever taught.
That’s good enough for me.
I’ve told family and friends that if I have no students, I’ll put my mat down beneath a tree in a park somewhere and teach to the pigeons.
That’s the state of mind I’m working with. Straight out of the Gita. No selfish attachment to outcomes. Admirable, don’t you think? I think so. Very yogic.
I’ve noticed that I am rather attached to how many students come to my present yoga classes. If a student drops in and doesn’t come back or if a regular stops coming, I start wondering what I did wrong. Maybe they don’t like me, I think.
It gets worse…
I do these blog posts. And I really mean for them to be a service. The intent is that they will spark some inquiry in the reader. I want people to look within their own practice and see what’s going on. That’s why I started, and that’s my mission, but… I really want those views and Likes and comments. I check on it way too many times a day.
So that pigeon-teaching state of mind is not currently present.
What is my current state of mind? I don’t even want to get into it. You’ve heard it all before anyway.
This is getting dreary.
Let me note the obvious, then I’ll get out of here: I have a ways to go. There is a distance between where I am and where I can see I might be – never mind the great distance I can’t even see from where I stand.
But then Thich Nhat Hanh comes along and says something like, If you breathe in and are really aware that you are alive, you’re already a little bit enlightened. A little bit.
I think I can see a difference between cruisin along being alive and being really aware that I am alive.
Yogi Bhajan said, The greatest art is to sit, and wait, and let it come.
If I can sit and wait and let it come, then it must already be here.
Swami Kripalu said, Any action not motivated by selfish desire is considered inaction.
He goes on to say that this is inaction because when our actions are unselfish, divine love is acting through us and so the actions are not our own.
I still get to own my selfish acts.
And, still… I may already have entry-level enlightenment. You, too.
I’d like to have pigeon-teaching mind.
There are three saints telling me how to do it:
Teach from love and nothing else.
Love my students whether I have any or not.
Feel my breath moving, and stay mindful of the gift of life.
Be still, and know the grace within.
So where to begin? How about this:
I love you, and you don’t have to say it back.