I take comfort in the unimportant.
I’m out and about and some tempting event enters my perceptual field, or maybe it’s just a memory. I feel the pull and ask … Is this important?
If no … then I send it to a room I have.
I’ve collected some old fears and wants, old friends, really, in that room. I can go in there and reminisce, but it’s better if I don’t.
I try to keep my distance.
I could take some comfort there. I could visit some of my favorite fears and cravings and remember the good times. But, sweet as they are, each one I exile feels like a bit of freedom gained. It’s good to know they’re not out there on the loose getting in my way.
They do get out, of course. I run into them around town.
Mindless reactions, big and small. Done a thousand times. No need to think. Just let it run.
I must go back. Begin again.
Ego is of the nature of fear and want.
If I am motivated by want, then what is the motivation for freeing myself of wanting?
My ego is delusional. I have the pleasure of my delusions.
I can’t have ego in charge and expect to get anywhere. I see that.
Seeing sharpens the sight.
Desire for my dharma.
Neti neti – not this, not this. Ancient practice of negation used for clearing the mind of distraction.
Sightless way of seeing Self when only non-self can be seen.
Each elimination of what is not, a small awakening.
In practice I ask myself – Is this important?
Is this Spirit talking, or is it Ego?
Does this lead to my dharma?
Is this me?